I never thought I’d say this but I feel lonely.
I miss him so much. I mean, I knew long distance would be hard, but not THIS hard. I only have to wait for 5 more months. 5 months and then I’ll see him again. But until then, I’d still have to endure 150+ days of emptiness and loneliness. Grrr. Sad. I have never stopped thinking about him. From the day we parted ways until this very moment, he’s been running in my mind. There’s never a day that passes by without me thinking about him. I’ve never thought this much about a person ever. I didn’t even think this much about my previous exes. What does this mean? Do I really feel the four-letter L word for real this time? Hmm…
I wonder if he also thinks about me as much as I think about him. I wonder if he, too, is shunning away all temptations. I am a natural flirt. It’s really such an effort to control myself from flirting with cute guys. Haha! I keed, I keed. Okay, fine. I have to be honest, I do have a crush or two (at the office), but that’s it. It’s just a crush. I don’t even talk to them. I wonder if labidabs is also doing some major self-control… That’s what I do. I wonder all the time.
I think of him when I hear songs about “waiting”, “across the miles”, and all those stuff about long distance love affairs. I feel totally heartbroken when I hear songs about “meeting the ex and getting back together” or “I’ve found someone new”. Damn. Wag naman sana! I miss him!
He is my Odysseus and I am his Penelope. In literature, Penelope is Odysseus’ wife who faithfully waits for him even after he has gone to war for 20 years. Sometimes I wonder if I really am strong enough to hold on for so long. I wonder if I’m as strong as Penelope. I’ve never done this long distance thing before. I’ve read articles about long distance love affairs. Some say it works, but most say it’s headed for the end of the road. I know that some who are in LDR’s get tired and their hearts easily go astray. I hope labidabs isn’t like that.
Every night I hope and pray to God to give us both the strength to resist all temptations and to avoid opportunities for us to cheat. I always ask God to give us the patience to wait for each other and of course, to help us to be faithful to one another. The day I realized that I had feelings for him, I started praying for him as well. And that hasn’t stopped. For now, all I need to do is talk to him constantly, make sure we’re still in each other’s hearts, and wait until he comes back. That’s what I’ll do and keep on doing. For now, I wait.
I miss him so much. I mean, I knew long distance would be hard, but not THIS hard. I only have to wait for 5 more months. 5 months and then I’ll see him again. But until then, I’d still have to endure 150+ days of emptiness and loneliness. Grrr. Sad. I have never stopped thinking about him. From the day we parted ways until this very moment, he’s been running in my mind. There’s never a day that passes by without me thinking about him. I’ve never thought this much about a person ever. I didn’t even think this much about my previous exes. What does this mean? Do I really feel the four-letter L word for real this time? Hmm…
I wonder if he also thinks about me as much as I think about him. I wonder if he, too, is shunning away all temptations. I am a natural flirt. It’s really such an effort to control myself from flirting with cute guys. Haha! I keed, I keed. Okay, fine. I have to be honest, I do have a crush or two (at the office), but that’s it. It’s just a crush. I don’t even talk to them. I wonder if labidabs is also doing some major self-control… That’s what I do. I wonder all the time.
I think of him when I hear songs about “waiting”, “across the miles”, and all those stuff about long distance love affairs. I feel totally heartbroken when I hear songs about “meeting the ex and getting back together” or “I’ve found someone new”. Damn. Wag naman sana! I miss him!
He is my Odysseus and I am his Penelope. In literature, Penelope is Odysseus’ wife who faithfully waits for him even after he has gone to war for 20 years. Sometimes I wonder if I really am strong enough to hold on for so long. I wonder if I’m as strong as Penelope. I’ve never done this long distance thing before. I’ve read articles about long distance love affairs. Some say it works, but most say it’s headed for the end of the road. I know that some who are in LDR’s get tired and their hearts easily go astray. I hope labidabs isn’t like that.
Every night I hope and pray to God to give us both the strength to resist all temptations and to avoid opportunities for us to cheat. I always ask God to give us the patience to wait for each other and of course, to help us to be faithful to one another. The day I realized that I had feelings for him, I started praying for him as well. And that hasn’t stopped. For now, all I need to do is talk to him constantly, make sure we’re still in each other’s hearts, and wait until he comes back. That’s what I’ll do and keep on doing. For now, I wait.
0 said "Holla!":
Post a Comment